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Posted by Grandvision - February 1st, 2020


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Hello my lovely Newgrounds friends and followers. Apologies for being quiet on here. I've wanted to share some very good news with all of you here. Legacy of Anduel is currently in pre-production stage at the moment and I am currently ironing out the characters, the fantasy magic system and how it works and how the Synopsis of the story will play out for the Short Film and how it will connect to the over-arching full story in the full book that I will publish. If you'd like to support the project please consider joining the Discord - https://discord.gg/KfNqB5m


I will be posting updates on the Film. Including GIFs, Videos, Works in Progress and General Progress Thoughts on all upcoming fronts. Feel free to pop by and have a chat. I will also be reworking my Patreon rewards. I have already reworked them a bit but I will be making a new Patreon video focusing entirely on my own content and hand made videos from Philosophy, Game and Film breakdown, Analysis and my own Film sneak peeks.


What is The Legacy of Anduel?

The Legacy of Anduel is a Fantasy Film that I've been working on since 2015. A life long passion project of mine that I've wanted to bring to life. In my world there exists Dragon Gods who each go by their own name.

These 8 Titan Dragon Gods each represent their own elemental force in my story. Sleeping under the earth. Each Continent was forged by the Titan Gods and each Race worships their own God. Each Race is attuned to elemental magic and use it to prosper within their lands. I am currently developing the Fantasy Magic System for the world. Including fleshing out the characters and plot. The main plot synopsis is already written down and there is a beginning, middle and resolute end. All I require is to develop my Kickstarter Campaign in order to hire Artists who will create the backgrounds and characters who I will then hand animate. I will also be composing the music, doing some of the voice acting and creating sound effects for the film. It's a long arduous process but it's been a very fun one. I always post WIPs and sneak peeks for my Patreon supports for as little as $1 per month. Consider supporting if you love Fantasy and Dragons - https://www.patreon.com/exodusarias


When will it be released?

Depending on the success of the upcoming Kickstarter Campaign and its funding. Proposed release date is somewhere at the end of 2021! The film is currently in pre-production stage. Planning for the story boarding, character development, and finalizing the story and lore of the world is being worked on in the background. All funding will be planned meticulously to a detailed spreadsheet of expenses for Background, Character Artists, Sound Effect Designers and Voice Actors.

Who will be working on the film? Can I join?

The current team for the project is currently 3 people. Azatharus[staticreature], ExodusArias[Myself] and ShayPup[Puptaur]

There are currently no positions available at the moment due to the early nature of the project. As soon as the Kickstarter begins a hiring process will begin where I will begin scouting for potential Artists, Sound Effect Designers and Voice Actors for the film. All processing will take place over Discord via Voice Chat with preferable Portofolios on hand.


Where can I find more information about the Film?

All Developer updates can be found easily via my YouTube Playlist - https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLIeK60u9AWQ90DiylHP__mso33i1l6T6v

The Playlist is constantly updated with new videos so be sure to check back often to see what you've missed.


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Posted by Grandvision - October 15th, 2019


Hello everyone!


I know I have been away for many years on Newgrounds but I just wanted to let you know that I've finally made some new music and have released it as part of my new Album entitled "Entropy"


Entropy is an experimental ambient album which combines electronic and symphonic elements into a sea of ethereal and otherworldly instrumentation. Take your journey across the cosmos. A vast unexplored world with endless horizons and vast vestiges of reality.


You can listen and download the whole album over here - https://exodusarias.bandcamp.com/album/entropy-2


I hope you enjoy the journey and as always do let me know what you think!


-Exodus.


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Posted by Grandvision - October 10th, 2018



Warning: This will be a long post of my life so far in 2018. Explaining how I’ve been feeling, what I’ve been dealing with physically and mentally this year and how it has affected my life, my friends and my family. Why I’ve also been distant from everyone and what is going to happen next. You are not required to read all of this post but hopefully it shall explain why I’ve been behaving in certain ways and what is going on in my life and how it has affected me and the people around me.
2018 was supposed to be my year, the year where I planned to do many a great things. From resuming composing music, perhaps even publishing an album and releasing some commercial tracks for trailers. I also wanted to make great strides towards pushing my Furry YouTube channel out and releasing a lot more content for people to enjoy. Content that I myself enjoyed making and others as well. Including convention footage from 2017 and 2018[mostly from Confuzzled] I still have over 6 hours of footage sitting on my hard drives waiting to be edited into something coherent. Why are they sitting there? Procrastination. It is the single worst trait about me as a creative person. I delay my projects, day after day. Making myself feel worse for not starting or even finishing some of them. Yet they’re not a requirement. I never get paid for my videos. I only do them because they allow me to be creative. So in order to push myself to finish these I decided to start a Patreon in the beginning of 2018. That I realized was a bad idea to begin with. Not only was there a self-deprecating motivation to finish projects now because of delays and procrastination, but there was also a financial push, where people expected content to be released on a monthly basis for Patreons. Now I didn’t have that many Patreons to begin with, actually 80% of those were my close friends, of which I appreciate every single one of them. It allowed me to push “some” content out, not all, some but it still wasn’t enough? The problem wasn’t with the way I approached this, the inherent problem was me. I wasn’t pushing myself enough. Now why was I not pushing myself? This might sound cliché, but depression. Depression has been a worryingly recent occurrence in my life. Not only did it affect my creative aspects, from video editing, fursuit photography and music composition, but my life as a whole, my social life, which came to a crawl. I stopped attending meets, or meeting up with people. I closed myself off from the world. So here on I will attempt to explain why my depression came back so strong and how it affected me in depth.
Ever since the end of 2017 me and my family have had trouble with paying off our rent. I was working maybe 5-6 days a week at most 8-10 hours a day in order to pay my monthly bills as usual. We live in a house of 4. Me, my Mother, My Father and my Brother. Now why were we having trouble paying our bills? Simple. My Mother is in no state to work anymore. She used to be a hairdresser for over 6 years after finishing college. She worked nearly every day. So did my Father, and he still does. Although after being fired from his main job as the company was making cutbacks he had to find a new job quickly, and he did, after a month, which set us back by a month of bills. I myself couldn’t afford to pay everything myself having only working a simple Barista job, at minimum wage in London. He found a different job, in the same job sector, but the hours were much shorter. So I decided to work 7 days a week. With no break. That meant that I was no longer able to work on my hobbies. Video editing footage, music or even photography, let alone attending meets or social events. This took a heavy toll on me, for many months. Coming back from a 10 hour shift, eating, sleeping and then working again from the morning. My sleeping schedule was absolutely ruined. My mind became a battlefield. I wanted to do more in a day. I wanted to be creative, because it is the only thing that kept me sane, that gave me joy and kept me stable these past few years, to be able to create something by yourself, and watch it grow, let it be enjoyed by hundreds of people. I felt self-worth. I decided to sacrifice a few hours of my life every day in order to get content out. That turned out to be a very bad idea. My mood decreased. I became grumpier. I wasn’t as reactive at work and my performance was stagnating. I of course warned my Manager of my situation. Of my depression, of my family debt and everything so she was aware and she tried to help me the best way she could. By giving me a day off or two, of which I declined at first as I needed the money, and fast.

Right now you might be asking yourself, what about my Brother? Isn’t he helping? Hah. Let me tell you. My brother has never worked properly in his entire life. He is what I call a leech in our family. Leeching off our finances. He like many of us at the moment have depression due to the extreme circumstances we have put ourselves into. But his affects others around him more than the rest of us. He does not want to work. When he does, he barely works 2-3 days a week, as a Labourer. A job he himself chose to do. He can find work at any time as long as he calls in Construction Agencies. But does he? No. He’s been dealing with heavy alcoholism for many years now. And we tried to help him, we tried to offer him therapy, alcohol prevention. Even giving him time to recover. Talk to him, let him know the situation. What we’re dealing with as a whole. Giving him time to find a job, not pay any rent or even food. Did it help? No. No matter what we tried he always slumped back to his old state. So I lost all trust for him, all hope. For over 6 years we tried. My Mother most of all, who because of that gained a lot of weight and now has heart problems, including high blood pressure, varicose veins[enlarged veins due to prolonged standing]. She can no longer work due to her condition and has to take medication against it. Of which I mostly pay out of my own pocket. So why not move out then? Live in a shared household? Trust me. I thought about it, and many other ways. I can’t just leave my Mother behind, when she is in such a critical state. And what will happen if I do? My Brother and Father will tear each other apart and my Mother will be in the middle of it, trying to stop them. No. I simply cannot do that, not yet. I want to get her away from this environment, but in a safe way. I want her to live with me if somehow I will be able to afford my own apartment someday. Or let her live with my Father.
Now I will attempt to explain my mental state and how it has been deteriorating over the past few years. I will try to explain the last two years in a short amount of time as best as I can, as explaining from the very beginning, from 2004 when I first moved into the UK would take a very long time.
As far as I am aware, my depression never truly left. I did not take steps to prevent it, or at least control it. All I did was through sheer power of will for many years. I did not go to therapy, nor did I speak to many people about my depression, only the very few. And sometimes it helped, sometimes it didn’t. Because depression is a very wide subject and it comes in many forms. It’s something that can’t be cured, it’s part of humanity. Who you are, it will come and go, even when you’re happy, because that’s how life is. But what you can do is take steps to make it last in shorter bursts and not let it affect you as much.

I did my best to hide my depression from people, because I did not want to let other people be brought down when I was out socializing with people, mostly at the LondonFur Meets. Where people come to forget about the world and enjoy themselves for a whole day of frolicking, talking to new and old people, having fun, drinking, socializing, hugging fursuiters and much more. So I put on a mask, a façade, as many people do I believe in order to push myself forward and enjoy myself even just a little, and it helped for a time. It truly did. Especially all the fursuit hugs that I got. That gave me hope. That there is kindness and compassion in this world and true people exist where the stark reality of the harshness of life and problems that I face could be forgotten for a day. That is what I lived for. It helped me. Even if it was once every three weeks. It was the hook that helped me stay afloat the edge of the mountain.
Yet forgetting or ignoring the problem would never make it go away. You have to face it head on. Solve it, together with the people that surround you every day. The people that made this situation happen in the first place. But not everything would go as planned.
In the beginning of 2018, somewhere around March I lost my main job. Due to my own depression affecting me severely to the point of not wanting to wake up for work, or do anything. I either overslept on my days off or slept very little on days I had to work. I was late, many times, and I apologized profusely. Explained my situation, and my mental state and for a time they understood. Sometimes I came in early, sometimes late, but being in a business where time keeping is everything no one will keep you for long, so I was let go. I had to find a different job and change my attitude towards work as a whole. Focus, and let it affect what mattered, getting enough money in order to pay for the rising rent debt that was rising every month.
So I was jobless for about a month and a half. I job searched everyday. Even applied for Jobseekers allowance, of which I was rejected due to insufficient evidence of my family’s job and earnings history. Eventually I found a job. The same job sector, Barista in a new family owned Coffee shop. The manager was kind, the people were passionate and everything seemed fine. It was a job. I had hours. I had a positive outlook on life for a split moment. I continued to work, but seeing as it was a local new family owned coffee shop. I only worked 6, sometimes 5 days a week, 6-8 hours. It was much less than my previous job so the money coming in every month was much less.
So with that I decided to launch my Patreon and somehow acquire extra money via any other means that I could, with my creative skills. I also began learning Adobe Premier and Adobe After Effects in order to start creating animated logos as commissions. Any extra money would be helpful at this point. And for a time it did. I posted a tweet on Twitter asking people for help. Over 340 retweets allowed me to make over 100 animated logo commissions. It kept me afloat. For a time there was a hope that we could repay everything.

But nothing lasts forever. The commissions died down and I had to come up with new ways to earn extra money on the side. I designed new logo templates and posted those, but they never gathered as much attention as the first. So I decided to ask my manager for more hours at work. And for the first time in many months the business started picking up. More customers began attending. Soon I was working 6-7 days a week again with 8-sometimes 14 hours a day. I was exhausted everyday but I had to do it, I had to push myself. But that also meant that I had to put my Patreon and commission content on hold for now. And I felt bad. Either I had to pause Patreon temporarily or keep it open while releasing a reduced amount of content for it and YouTube. In the end I decided to keep it open while trying to work on content after work every day. I was putting too much responsibility on my shoulders. It was too much. It affected me mentally and physically. I did not get enough sleep again, and my mood was affected. I was having mood swings. Sometimes I wouldn’t even want to wake up. The feeling of procrastination came back, coupled with exhaustion and depression I was barely releasing any new content on the side.

And yet with all that extra work on my regular job I was still not earning enough money to pay off the rent debt with my family regularly. After a few months we were given a declaration to evict the premises with a court order by the Landlord. We filled the forms out and sent them off. It’s been over 4 weeks and we have yet to hear from the court on whether we will be evicted or allowed to stay in the premises and pay off the £5000 rent debt we accrued. But with advice from other people I know that they will not allow us to stay for long even if the court goes in our favor, 14 days or a month at best. Unless we manage to pay off the whole debt quickly enough. So what I decided to do was register our whole family for Council Housing [in the UK it’s like sheltered housing, where the Government provides you with temporary shelter where you have to pay the bare minimum, like Council Tax]
But I’ve heard that people who have registered for this service sometimes waited for over a year to get housing, and we simply didn’t have that kind of time. Where would we go if the Landlord and Court decided to evict us? Probably on the street. I have a possibility of staying with one of my friends in a shared flat, paying my share of the rent of course and everything else but at the moment I have no solution for a place for my Mother.
At the moment I am living life day by day, not knowing what will happen. If my job becomes redundant. If the court decided to evict us. Where we will be. Who I will be with? Will I be able to take care of my Mother whose health has been deteriorating quickly I have no idea. I have no answers. All I can do is push forward. Try my best. Work my job. And try to bear it all, I am not sure for how long but I will try my best. There is a lot more I want to say but most of it is far too personal and I have learned from previous posts that I shouldn’t share as much as I did in the past, being an honest and open person can be a double edged sword. With that I hope people understand what it is I am dealing with and I apologize to those who I have wronged, or reacted in a manner that did not represent me, over the last two years. It was not me. It was a version of someone who I despised, of which when surfaced gave me great regret. I hated myself. I still do. I am trying to get better. I am trying to deal with my problems, and not let it affect the people around me. So the best solution I found was not interact with anyone at all, for fear of affecting the people the wrong way, or letting off the wrong impression. Maybe it is not the best approach, as it plays on my mental state but it is the best I can do at the moment. I will try to get help, perhaps through the NHS, Citizen Advice Bureau, and Debt Citizenship Advice. Anything that will help me deal with the situation at hand and slowly but surely get out of it with as few scars as possible. So I please ask my friends, all of you to bear with me as I go through this difficult stage of my life. Thank you.
 


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Posted by Grandvision - July 7th, 2018


Musicians are some of the most driven,
courageous people on the face of the earth. They
deal with more day—today rejection in one year
than most people do in a lifetime. Every day, they
face the financial challenge of living a freelance
lifestyle, the disrespect of people who think they
should get real jobs, and their own fear that
they'll never work again. Every day, they have to
ignore the possibility that the vision they have
dedicated their lives to is a pipe dream. With
every note, they stretch themselves. Emotionally
and physically, risking criticism and judgment.
With every passing year, many of them watch as
the other people their age achieve the
predictable milestones of normal life - the car,
the family, the house, the nest egg. Why?
Because musicians are willing to give their entire
lives to a moment - to that melody, that lyric,
that chord, or that interpretation that will stir the
audience's soul. Musicians are beings who have
tasted life's nectar in that crystal moment when
they poured out their creative spirit and touched
another's heart. in that instant, they were as
close to magic, God, and perfection as anyone
could ever be. And in their own hearts. they know
that to dedicate oneself to that moment is worth
, a thousand lifetimes


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Posted by Grandvision - February 8th, 2018


Hello everyone. I've recently been thinking about my music as a whole, what it means to me. The purpose my music held to me was so I could escape reality, to wander in a forgotten world. To create something from nothing. To be able to dela with my emotions and to let it seep through my music. I always composed for myself. There was no notion of standards or what I could do with it. I sort of just let flow whatever it is came to mind. There was no end goal, nor did I ever have the confidence to sell my music until recently. I never thought I was any good. As one says you are your own worst critic. I stumbled and fell, had months where I did not compose anything. It grew to a point where I was composing something of such detail and quality that I knew I had to get it right, the intricate details, the orchestration. It had to sound right. I was never satisfied with what I composed. There was always something add and I always went back to previous compositions and kept improving them. But as an artist there is a breaking point, where you have to leave a piece behind. There is nothing else that you can do. Rather move on than be stuck in the same head space. Over the years I realize I haven't composed that much music. Because I never really did it for one single purpose. It was something personal, Something for myself, something that I could call home. Recently it began to mold into something commercial. I was trying to offer commissions. Custom soundtracks that catered to a persons details. It was hard getting started, you had to be specific, the mood, the instruments, the feeling. It all had to align with a commissioners vision. And that was something that I always had difficulty with. Having always composed from within. It had to be external, yet it still had to be my own but at the same time cater to what the commissioner wanted. And if there was something wrong with the final product I felt horrible. It was a daunting experience. Part of the reason why I lost all creative spark with my work. It just didn't feel right. That artistic liberty was gone. I think we all as artists have to face this at some point. That if you want to make your music commercially viable you have to lose a part of something in order to gain something else. The ability to create something for someone else while maintening your style and spark in it. To work creatively, but to also work professionally. It is a transition not everyone can get easily adjusted to, and I feel like I am one of those people. I am taking a break from music for now. But I will be back when I readjust myself and see what music truly means for me, and hopefully reignite that spark that I once had that many years ago. Discovering a whole  new world.

In the mean time I have made all of my music available for free for you to listen to, downloaded, whatever it is you want. It is all available here on my website. I hope people enjoy for what there is on there.

- https://grandvision.bandcamp.com/


Posted by Grandvision - November 16th, 2017


Hello everyone. As a thank you for sticking by me with my music and listening to my journey through my music I've decided to release 100 Promo Codes just for the furry fandom so anyone can download my "Unmasked" album for free using a one time use code.

The Code will allow you to download the whole album for free in high quality! The album contains 9 of my beautifully orchestrate tracks. I've also included "I've Seen Too Much" a tribute to one of Naruto Shippudens most saddest tracks in the anime.

To listen to the album go here - https://grandvision.bandcamp.com/album/unmasked

To enter your One Time Promo Code go here - https://grandvision.bandcamp.com/yum

Comment below or note me for your special promo code! Only a 100 of them were created. Be quick!
 


Posted by Grandvision - November 11th, 2017


I've always wondered what people found fascinating in my music. Whether that was the style or the experimentation with sound and different genres I used to do. It has been one hell of journey through the last 8 years and I plan to make much more music in the future. To bring ideas to life, worlds, characters, my emotions and state of mind especially through my music. Music was always something personal to me. It began as a way of coping with depression and social exclusion. I was alone, I had no friends back in 2008. All I had was my mind and my music, so I began composing. Which is partly the reason why I mostly compose when under a certain situation, whether traumatic or depressing or even happy sometimes. A lot of my music is melancholic for that reason.

So with that I would like to ask what is it that made you click that Watch button on my Profile? Which track really peaked your interest. Considering I've released quite a few tracks since the last time I asked this question I believe peoples views on me, my music has changed, and so has my style and approach in a way. I am always interested in what people think, or imagine when listening to my tracks. That's one of the most fascinating things to read for me, what you felt, what you imagined when you sat through a piece.


Posted by Grandvision - May 17th, 2017


So I was thinking of making CDs for my latest album "Unmasked" - https://grandvision.bandcamp.com/album/unmasked

With Extended tracks for[About 3 minutes each]:
Elves of the West
Echo Fox Theme
Ori and the Blind Forest - Time

Improved:
Awakening[No Percussion]
Awakening[Percussion]
At Any Cost[No Change]
Time is a Fickle Thing[Instrumental & Shay Edition]
I've Seen Too Much[Digital and Live Played Version]

The Live version will contain a live VIolinist, Cellist and Femal Vocalist. [Hopefully, this is still in the planning stage]

So that would be 9 tracks, all fully mixed and mastered for the CD. It would be a LIMITED edition CD which is signed by me and will have beautiful custom artwork done by an Artist[yet unnamed]

I've never released CDs before but is this something you would be interested in buying? I've yet to choose a CD company and distributor. I am not sure how one would go about signing the CDs before they're sent off[either embeding a signature on the artwork itself or signing each one before they're distributed. I'd have to look that up. This album would also be available on Bandcamp, although I am not sure yet, want to make this a Limited Edition thing. Do I have enough of a following to consider this? The profit would have to outweigh the cost.

Thoughts?


Posted by Grandvision - May 15th, 2017


I've just noticed my Instrumental version of Time is a Fickle Thing got Frontpage featured on the 2nd of May and yet I've never noticed this.

http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/738528

And yet the Shay version in my honest opinion is superiour?

http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/736384

Weird, but I'll take what I can get I guess. I wish you got notifications for being frontpaged, it's so easy to miss it. >.>


Posted by Grandvision - May 10th, 2017


Have you ever made something, something with your own hands, your own sweat and blood? Did you put endless hours into it, how did it make you feel? A sense of awe, accomplishment? Perhaps the urge to jump for joy and have the biggest grin on your face?

Yes my friend I am talking about the power of your mind, specifically your creativity. The single best gift given to mankind, the power to create from nothing, from the depths of your imagination, the crevices of long forgotten mazes, of far forgotten lands, worlds unexplored and uncharted mysteries that lie in wait, waiting to be discovered.

Whether you're an artist, musician, writer, singer, photographer, fursuit builder, jeweler or even video content creator. To build from nothing is an art in and of itself. No one knows where it comes from, it just trickles down from our minds into the endless pages of creation.

I myself proud to have discovered the power of music, the freedom it gives, the emotions it brings, the bridges it builds and the hearts it connects, all over the world. Music is universal, a language of the heart and soul. Everyone understands it and everyone interprets it in their own way. No one musician is the same, they leave their very marks on the worlds they create, and change the course of artistic creation long after they are gone.

Music for me is a way to communicate with people, to tell them my story, but yet keep it open to interpretation. What they imagine is their mind constructing the very world in their own eyes, not mine, that is the power of imagination. I must give credit to music for steering me off depression more than I could count, it has saved me from many moments of despair and loneliness, where I could release my emotions and let them appear on my pages as music.

So whoever you are and whatever you do, never stop creating, to create is to experience freedom like nowhere else. So let your hands guide you and let your mind wander for many pages to come.

-Grandvision.